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04:36 pm: EVERYONE COME N SEE HARD TO SWALLOW TOMORROW OR TUESDAY.
look below at hannah d's entry

06:07 pm: hannah davis could you please explain this to me it is my Coventry offer.
This offer is subject to your obtaining 220 UCAS Tariff points including 140 points from two 6 unit or one 12-unit including Biology, excluding General Studies, excluding Key Skills.
thanks
x

05:32 pm: I have to get glasses, apparently i'll need them for reading, wirting when at a computer.
how wierd have never foung a single pair that suit me so this should be fun.
x

07:32 pm: shit shit shit
my mum just geard a conversation that she really shouldnt have heard
am now avoiding going sownstairs at all costs am ver sacred
help!!

08:58 pm: Ever had that week where you discover someone really big in your life has changed completely changed and not for the better, but the stupid thing is i knew she had changed long ago but now its come as a real sock maybe i thought she would change back or maybe i was just fooling myself.
i always thought i was a person who welcomed change but i hate this n i loathe this person even more. Its so sad yet i know im not going to make any attempt to help the matter maybe any better a part of me just doesnt want to i dont know why i let it go this far and i dont why im so upset when i knew it all along but i am, its like losing a relative but one im going to have to see all the time so the wound will just keep ripping back open.
I wish i could cut all contact but i cant and i hate myself because this person needs help and ive always been the one to give it and im just not going to anymore cos i cant stand to, i feel this is going against myself but it has to be done.
Sorry.

11:09 pm: have ordered my fairy wings and my ears am very happy but it has just set me back £19.85, god cant believe i spend money so easily. seriously im talking scolded leg from the burn in my pocket.

04:13 pm: 01. Reply with your name and I will write something about you.
02. I will then tell what reminds me of you.
03. If I were to apply an o'clock to you, it would be...
04. I will try to name a single word that best describes you.
05. I'll tell you the most memorable moment I've had with you.
06. I'll then tell you something that I've always wondered about you.
07. Put this in your journal.

05:22 pm: Nose is pierced!

12:29 pm: Scared
I'm going to go get my nose pieced this afternoon am very scared, and i can't decide what side to get it done on!

07:57 pm: Cheer girls, sneer girls, wrapped in golden gear girls. Leer girls, queer girls, the spread a little fear girls.
Glam girls, wham girls, the just don't give a damn girls. Sleek girls, freak girls, the totally unique girls.
Flooze girls, cruise girls,we ain't got no taboos girls. Boot girls,cute girls, with a liking to pollute girls.
C-H-E-E-R-L-E-A-D-E-R-S! Cheerleaders!
Had the student union hustlings today n fell flat on my face in front of 200 people, lol.

10:07 pm: I never thought i could care, I never thought i could cry, i never thought i'd think twice but now it's happened and i do, i have, i am and i just don't know.

05:32 pm: happy happy happy
had a drama reheasal today for the crucilble and it went really well the last act is so good, especially as now i'm playing proctor which is great and i get to kiss lucy so thats always a bonus. Have been doing so much school work lately i cant believe it but hey its all good.
am going to write some more drama essays tonight!

07:36 pm: Feeling very lost
Well yesterday was the last day of the passion, the matinee was crap it was really lagging in everything and the audience were really unsceptive. But after that show we went to Queens square and messed around which was fun. and i literally saved the day by losing my trousers, my friend climbed right to the top of the statue and then got stuck, as she was wearing a skirt and there were loads of men watching her so she couldnt get down so i was like do you want my trousers so i gave then to her and she climbed down very eligantly, much to the annoyance of the men. ( would like tp point out that i had a skirt on over my trousers so wasnt stood naked or anything).
The evening performance was went really welll, and there were loads of people there who i knew so thanks to everyone who came, i love you all. The after show party was good got very drunk and think i might have made a slight tit out of myself but whats new.
Am now feeling very very lost as its all over, i hate the come down after a show it sucks so much, so am trying to keep myself busy all though i have sat round trying to recober from one of the worst hangovers of my life.
xx

03:09 pm: well last night as the first night of the Passion. and it went really well. its kinda sad as we are almost at the end already. but am very tired so am going to leave it there as i havent really done any thing else except that so.........

11:05 pm: Rant time
well today was the tech of the passion and things went reasonably well.
Until Jo decided it would be wise to tell us that the only thing keeping her sane was jo wallis, so we were all there like we are working are arses off n you dont even care.
I spent ages panicking this morning as i had the group (in college) folder and they needed it so i went to karinas house where there was no answer, waited on the bus stop to give it to someone, no one turned up so i was like well thers nothing i can do. Phoned lucy and explained, she was really understanding.
but i got a text from her later and she was like shit shit shit we have to have the finall script in tomorrow or we arent entered for the exam so i almost cryed as it isnt done.
So when i got home tonight i phoned lucy and she told me that when they told dom what had happened with the folder he went on a 20 min rant about how i'd let then down, and basically what a bitch i was. so just had a little cry. cos of all the people to do that to me i would never have thought it to be him, and its not evn like hes a proper teacher, so fuck him.
But any way opening night tomorrow Ahhhhhhhhhhhh

10:10 pm: The past few days have been some of the wierdest of my life, but i'm not going in to it all.
Went ot see the Downend A-level peice, a modern day version of Macbeth and i do have to say it was really good. So well done to all. I then went to Bens and met his parents properly for the first time which was abit scary, but they seemed very nice, we watched the Incredables which is so funny.
Had rehearsals saturday and things finally appear to be taking shape which is all very exciting.
On monday in college my tutor said she thought i should run for student union, so am thinking about going for vice president, but i'm not sure. I don't know whether i'd get enough support.......
Since then i havnt really done that much.
Got the tech rehearsal tomorrow, ten the first performance Thursday night so if you haven't got your tickets yet get a move on!!!!!!!!!

10:53 pm: Today has been ok, the oh so wonderful Hannah has just given me loads of notes for my drama essays so i might actually do them some time soon now, considering they were set in September. I only had one lesson today so that was good and things seem to be going back to normal with everyone after the events of last week. (Marshall actually spoke to me today so that was a big improvement). Have been getting texts from a strange person but hey thats always fun. Am hopefully going to go see the chatterbox soon, which should be amazing. Have this stupid bath higher education trip tomorrow which will be a waste of time but i'm sure i can find some way of making it fun. (like playing a game in my head).
Ahhhh phone is vibrsting.................

Oh got abit excited and it was just virgin sending me stupid things.
Am going to go some reading.

07:40 pm: Spent money AGAIN...
Woke up really early, seriously was like 7oclock but managed to some early work so that was good. went shopping with my mum and bought the dress i wanted yey, as well as bracelets but have now seen a top as well but had no money left, lol. Rehearsals were really bad, we got nothing done n it was so exhausting i just wanted to have a cigarette n go to bed, but never mind. Is my dads birthday so will buy him a cake i think before i go round.............

06:39 pm: Well.............
This is the first time ive ever written one of these, and it's abit scary, theres just so much space for such a small person to fill.
Am on the phone to jo jo who has just talked me through how this thing works , lol. Am off to bov in abit yey, so will leave it there.